Raining

I wish life has a take 2. I wish I have a second chance. There are many things that I want to tell him and i wish he knows
I had so many good memories with him that I hope will last forever and never came to a stop.
But now, it will only buried deeply in my heart.
Life is soooo difficult without him. The saddest part is i cannot share my feelings with anyone because our relationship is "underground"
I am very silly. Even though I know our relationship will not work out but i still chose to stay with him. I have to acknowledge that that past 2 months had been one of the happiest moments in my life full of suprise and romance. But is time to wake up now. He is not ginving me a second chance to make it up nor even to explain my interior motives. Why i am even crying for this guy. Why????

I went to his office door everyday and hope i will see him somehow. how silly.
I saw his car with the right door jammed and crocked.

I just cannot control myself.
Why i am crying......I wanna stay strong but I can't!! I have no one to talk to !!!!